I'm not the type of person to throw someone under the bus so quick but lately people have just been rubbing me the wrong way! I seriously could do without the human race sometimes. I love my very few selected people that I surround myself with unconditionally but sometimes I just wanna be left alone! Then you have the people who stalk the hell out of your life and need to creep around see what you're doing; who you're talking too && getting in your business. If I wanted you to know I would have told you and you wouldn't have to be such a creep and call my phone all hours of the effing night from private numbers. I changed my number and fixed that issue. But seriously go away. =)

On another note I don't know what's going on with me as of lately and I'm so not having it. I've been up & down with my feelings/emotions and feeling totally worthless. Things are happening that I can't wait to change and make better for other decisions to come in the near future then you have the things that are holding you back. God needs to throw me just one good stone and let me do the rest. I know where I'm heading and where I wanna go I just have to make it happen first and I can definitely do that for myself.

Earlier I found a note that had a box attached to it and I so was wondering what it was.. It was a letter from my EX and the diamond necklace she bought me for my birthday. I seriously had flashbacks of everything that we went through. She's the reason it's so hard for me to trust the next person I end up being with. I need to open up and let people in, I need to take the risk of being in love, giving my all to someone that could really do the same for me. I need to stop thinking the worst in such situations when it's not even that big of a deal.

Anyways; This song at the bottom reminds me of someone really important to me && I don't think he really knows much he means to me.

Goodnight lovelies.